Don’t know much about astronomy. Don’t know much astrology. Don’t know much about perigee moon. Don’t know much about moon in Scorpio. But I do know this, over the course of the super moon weekend, the energies in the cosmos knocked me out of orbit, in the mental and emotional sense. To put in terms of celestial physics, I was whacked out of a natural balanced state – the place where my life connects me, via a spiritual gravitational pull, to the Divine.
The week prior, I slacked on my yoga practice, mediation time in Nature, and jogs with my big dog.By the weekend, I found myself feeling a little lost in space. Unbalanced space element in a vata predominant person will produce feelings of either insecurity or claustrophobia. This pertains to both the physical and energetic realms. For me, insecure feelings regarding a certain relationship blasted into my universe, like the return of Haley’s comet. I’m typically an independent person, who enjoys a good amount of personal space, even in an intimate relationship. So to feel needy and for no solid reason, was unusual.
Ayurveda states all of life is relationship and is a daily practice of maintaining balance with the external world. Since I study Ayurveda and Vedic astrology (Jyotish), I wanted to understand how the super moon energies were affecting my mental and emotional body. So I turned to the heavens for answers to my temporary and unexpected loss of spiritual balance. I wanted to know why I was feeling like Buzz Armstrong without his gravity boots.
Man has long looked to the stars for guidance, healing, and understanding of human nature. The celestial realm provides a vast and deep perspective on how our external environment (the planets, stars, moon) affects our internal environment (body, thoughts, emotions). The full moon from Saturday May 5 through Sunday May 6 was a super moon. The scientific term for the phenomenon is perigee moon. Perigee means closest to Earth. The moon was closest to Earth on Saturday May 5, as it would be for this year.
I discovered there were three celestial factors at play which affected the moods, thoughts, and emotions, of not only me, but those of my students, clients and friends.
First, the lunar energies on Earth were magnified. The moon was 14 percent bigger than a typical full moon. Her light shone brilliant, being 30 percent brighter than other full moons. And while the moon, does not produce its own light, the light it reflects has a radiant electromagnetic force on all life on Earth. The super moon’s energy shifted the tidal rhythms, causing tides to move strong and swift. The pull of the moon’s energy went beyond the physical realm of the tides. As with any full moon, people feel more emotional. Several friends and clients described their experiences as “feeling especially needy”, “completely whacked out” and “over emotional.” Personally, I rode some pretty gnarly class 5 ebbs and flows of emotions, which related to balancing intimacy and space regarding a special guy.
Second, the intense energetic and emotional tidal waves over the weekend were due to the astrological position of the moon in Scorpio. My friend Szilvia, who studies Jyotish Astrology, said the moon in Scorpio “brings a lot of intensity to emotions and they might not be flowing, but rather stuck in that intensity, like a wall of water that builds up pressure against a dam.” Also, the moon was next to Rahu. Rahu is an illusionary planet which represents the north node of the moon. Szilvia explained how “some irrational fears (fears based on illusions) might come up that are not actually rooted in the truth or reality.”
The third factor related to the position of the moon in my personal Jyotish chart. According to Vedic Astrology, I am considered a “moon type”. My moon is in my first house and I was born two minutes before moonrise. I also have strongly placed kapha (dosha relating to water element) planets, which means I am in touch with my emotions and feel comfortable allowing them to flow like water.
Wax and Wane
A moon type person tends to be intuitive, imaginative, emotional, and sensitive to the environment and others. They are naturally guided (and sometimes yanked), by feelings, emotions, and intuition. Since the moon is always changing in a cycle of waxing and waning, a moon type’s emotions tend to change more frequently too. They are highly reflective souls and will connect with life and others in deep ways. Being sensitive with keen perception, they deeply feel the shifts in life like changes in the weather, another’s moods, or the moon’s phases.
As a moon person, I tend to feel unsettled and a tad claustrophobic in too much structure, and thus need change on a regular basis. True to my moon in first house (and my Irish/Hungarian gypsy spirit), I am comfortable moving through change, whether it’s a new city, home, or job. Navigating through the changing currents of geographical moves or my emotions has never been a scary experience for me.
So, when the super moon occurred, not only did I watch the moonrise, I also watched some fairly funky emotions rise. And thankfully, ebb. Watching my thoughts and emotions, which waxed and waned over the weekend, I learned an important truth about staying centered. Instead of orbiting around another, I must orbit around the Divine/God.
I Saw the Light and Heard George Jones
Just like the sun is the source of the moon’s light, the source of light in my life needs to be God, and not any external relationship. The half of the moon not facing the sun is in darkness. It’s the dark side of the moon. Energetically, dark is associated with fear; while light is associated with love. For a moment on Saturday night, my life rotated around another person. I got pulled away from the Divine light and for a few hours, found myself standing in the dark in regards to a relationship.
Due to an expectation and a miscommunication, I blew a situation out of proportion. I had hoped to hear from my dear friend that evening. When I saw no smoke signal in the night sky, I felt insecure. Insecurity is a form of fear. Fueled by the moon in Scorpio and Rahu, that little fear blasted me out of orbit and away from God.
Thankfully, earlier in the day, my instincts encouraged me to seek the embrace of Mother Nature. I pitched my tent in the garden and set up camp, a MASH tent of sorts to repair the damage to my wounded Ego. Even though the moonlight was brilliant, I fell asleep quickly to the lullaby of crickets and a mockingbird aria. However the super moon was so bright, at one point I awakened, thinking it was daylight. Hours later I awoke again and thought someone was shining a light on my tent. I suddenly felt annoyed at the high watt intensity of the moonlight. Then the blob of annoyance spread and I felt annoyed at my friend for not contacting me. The moonlight continued to shine, so bright it felt like someone pointing a spotlight right in my face. And then, I realized someone was doing just that. It was God speaking to me through George Jones. I heard a verse from “Cold Hard Truth”, the song written by my friend Jamie O’Hara.
I’ve come to set the record straight;
I’ve come to shine the light on you.
Let me introduce myself:
I am the cold hard truth.
From B.S. to Bullseye
Thankfully the record was set straight. In the light of the super moon, I saw the cold hard truth: I was annoyed at myself. My feelings of insecurity had nothing to do with my sweet friend. Rather, they were a result of a sin (which means to miss the mark) regarding mySelf. The reality of the situation was that all week I did not pay enough attention to mySelf. All week I had neglected to do the things I knew nurtured my heart and soul. By doing so, I missed the mark…the bullseye, which is my life. I got spun out of orbit, away from the center of my life, which is God.
The moon’s light helped me shift from the darkness of illusions and in to the light of reality. I saw how my fears, were just like those “monsters” who used to hide under my bed when I was young. When I turned on the light and looked under the bed, nothing was there. Same goes for any fear. Shine light on it and fear disappears.
My heart softened. I released this amazing guy from the grips of my fearful mind, and in doing so, set us both free. I smiled. For in that moment, under the light of the super moon, my Ego cried mercy. And in brilliant gleams, mercy shone down from super moonbeams. Bullseye. I had returned to the space of love.
Sunday Morning Benediction
The next morning I felt I needed to make amends with my friend, even though he most likely had no idea of my temporary loss of balance. I stopped by his place. After he heard my confession, he gave me a warm hug, a tender kiss, and a benediction. He said, “Go. Go out and enjoy this gorgeous day. Go do what you love. Go teach the yoga class. Go do what you love today.” Even though he used “go” many times, I did not hear “go away from me”. Instead, I heard, “Go inward to your heart”. The same message I received a few hours earlier in the moonlight. This time the light shining on me was from the gorgeous smile of my friend. The blessing was all about helping me maintain my spiritual gravitational pull towards the Divine within.
That Sunday morning I celebrated my own communion service. I had realigned and returned to my heart space, balanced in the place of awareness where my life rotates around the Divine. It is from the place of the Divine within, where the greatest light shines. Under the glow of the super moon, light overcame darkness and love overcame fear. The Soul triumphed in the super moon smackdown.